Nobody told me there'd be days like these

It is 2:17 am and I am awake, as always. I had to write this blog to get out my frustration at being such a bumbling fool. Those who know me best already know about me history of falling down stairs, but it's the everyday stuff that really gets me mad at myself. In the last few days I "accidently" kicked a 5 gallon bucket of paint and it looks like I killed the nail. Boo Hoo! My fear is that I am going to loose the nail and it will grow back in all scraggly and weird, as if I don't have enough insecurities already. Just one more thing to obsess about. And that isn't even the real thing I am frustrated about... In the last two hours I somehow injured my shoulder and got a comb stuck in my hair so bad, that I can't get it out. So here I sit pissed off at myself, using one hand to type because I can't move my left arm, and a comb hanging in my rat's nest of hair. Grrr! It's so bad that I am going to have to go wake up my 85 year old grandmother to put muscle rub on my back and get this comb unstuck from my hair! Thank goodness my grandma is the best in the world and will not mind me waking her up at 2:30 in the morning to get a comb out of my hair like I am a three year old.

Thinking about this whole hair situation has got me thinking about changing my hairstyle a little bit. I've been growing my bangs out, and they just aren't working for me anymore. So I think before I go to Florida for school, I might cut my bangs. Right now I am thinking long Heidi Klum bangs, but I am open for suggestions.

Kindergarten

Oh Shite! One day I am wallowing in self pity and complaining that life moves much slower than a snails pace, and the next I'm signing registration forms for school, paying tuition, and renting houses! Independence here I come! I think it's funny that people are going to let me tattoo their face, I mean if you knew me personally, you wouldn't want me coming at you eyeballs with needles and ink! Muwahahahahahahahaha!

Nada

Kinda sucks to have a blog when you have no life, not much ever happens. I did take some nice pictures of flowers today. That was fun for a whole 15 mins. I wish I knew photoshop a little better, I did take a few pictures of the sunset tonight that could use some color boosting. I'm going to look into some photoshop tutorials that my sister Anika told me about. I was able to change the brightness and contrast on the pic I took of this copper wind decoration. I think it came out nice.
The sunsets here are one of the things I am really going to miss when I leave this place, but I can't bum off family forever. As soon as I get this pain under control, I'll be heading down to Tampa for a few weeks to train for my permanent cosmetology license. And I'll finally be on track for starting my life over again. My do-over has lasted almost three years now, and it's not a rut, but a trench. I'm ready to fill it in!

Silver Surfer

Darn it!  I am sick again! *cough *cough, excuse me.  I can feel a fever beginning to spread all over my body.  I know what it is, no need for a diagnosis.  It's another upper respiratory infection.  I used to get them much more frequently than I do now, I forgot how miserable it makes me feel.  So now that I am sure that I am sick and not just feeling run down, I have a choice to make, doctor, or no doctor?  My mother doesn't go to the doctor, she believes she can will her body to cure any infection or disease, interesting huh?  She also believes that dietary supplements work better than prescription medications.  I am willing to try just about anything to get to feeling better, but I don't have enough will power to get up before noon, let alone cure my ailments.  So for me the choices are supplements, or pharmaceuticals.  My mother has always pushed colloidal silver on me as a miracle cure for everything, and I have reluctantly tried it, but never kept up with it as directed.  But when the fever started setting in a few hours ago, and I had no cold medicine around,  I got out my spray bottle of silver, and coated my nose and throat.  Sitting and staring of into space for a moment, as you do when you feel pretty ill, I suddenly thought I would investigate my moms claims of this miracle spray silver.  To the Wiki I go!  HOLY CRAP!!!!!!  Ingesting silver into your body can cause a rare disease called Argyria.  Guess how you find out if you have argyria?  Your skin will permanently, that's right I said permanently, turn grayish-blue!  I know, you are thinking, "No way!", well, YES WAY!  Look at what happened to these poor people.

I'm throwing away this bottle of colloidal silver and calling my doctor first thing in the morning for some good old fashioned antibiotics!

Reduced to this...

Things will never be the same again. How sad.

This is where it begins.

I guess it has been a long time coming, but I'm not sure if I am happy with it or not.  For a long time my thoughts have bounced around in my head and my only release has been using my friends as a sounding board.  This whole blog thing is going to be my test.  Let's see if I can organize my words to express myself, and not drive my loved ones crazy anymore with my outlandish ideas.  Wish me luck!